days like today

I think about you to much
I sit here in silence wanting to be somewhere else
so that I can be to busy to think about you

I really need to occupy my mind with something else
Not that I'm focused on you
I just think about you
and it's really hard

6 years
6 years of standing with you when the world stood against you
6 years of holding you up when you felt like falling
6 years of being a walking matt for you

and for some reason . . it hurts that we don't talk anymore
I shouldn't hurt over this I should be glad

but I'm not
and I do hurt

I know God has better for me,
but it doesn't always feel that way
todays not one of those days where it feels that way
todays one of those days where I just wish you'd say something

where I wish I could forget your number
where I wish I could forget you ever existed
where I wish I never knew you

yeah todays one of those days