Heart, Soul, Mind, and Strength.... but not all of it.

     I've been lacking in areas of my life. My prayer life and personal time with God has taken a serious blow over the last few months and I really realized it when I sat down for lunch with someone who reminds me of the more glorious days. She reminded me of what I had with God before I got too busy "doing His will" to spend time with Him. Not that I have spent no time with Him, but I've been on autopilot for a while now.

My days lately

1. Wake up

2. glance over some scripture

3. Go to school

4. Come home

5. Record music/play video games/work on tuesdays/church on wednseday/ practice on thursday

6. Hang out with friends

and of course there's food somewhere in there

Things are missing here....

Very vital things are missing here

things that have to do with God

     It's crazy how the snowball effect works. You stop spending time with God and start "Spending time on God" and all the sudden you realize that you're in such a critical condition of the heart. I'm thankful for the realization that things are missing here. Had it not been for the spirit showing me this, then I would simply continue down that path, and even though I'm saved I wouldn't be living an abundant life. That is what I want! That is what I miss! I miss knowing that I am close to God, and the pure adventure that brings forth. 

    

At the end of the day

I haven't been giving this all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength.

I've been giving some, but not all and that's a problem!

I can't afford to do that anymore, so my prayer is that He change this in me.

That He would come and renew me, and bring me back to Him because I can't fix me

only He can.

2013

     It started off with a bang! I was in a band and we were really good. We played for different youth groups and churches and things went so well. I'd finally gotten over all the ex girlfriend drama.... Man things were going so good, but somewhere along the way it got tough. It got real tough. The band broke up, and in the midst of that, which I think I'm ready to admit that I put on a much stronger face about it than I really wanted to, I lost my will to write. I lost my will to do a lot of things..... 

    Near the end of the year I had to drag myself to spending time reading the bible and in prayer, and I had to drag myself to be honest with accountability partners about things I just didn't really care to be honest about. I had to drag myself to be a leader when I really didn't feel like it... I had to do a lot of dragging myself....

Sometimes I did a much better job of it than others. I had good weeks and bad weeks....

But I can honestly say I've gotten stronger through it all.

December 2013 I felt God pulling me closer to Him, not that He wasn't the whole time, I just couldn't see it past the thought of dragging myself... The truth is that He was strengthening me to make it through things that I couldn't make it through without Him. He still is and I see that now. I don't know what 2014 holds, but I do know that God is with me. Through the ups and the downs, He will never leave me nor forsake me. 

He works all things together for my good and my good is to be made more into the likeness of Christ!

The future is an exciting and scary thought...

LETS DO THIS!!!!