taking a quick breath

well today was a very adventurous day
and tonight was an incredible night

School was school lol btw I have a math test tomorrow . . . YAY
Hung out with mrs. Amazing today (shhhhh don't tell her I called her amazing or she will say "eh")
and then went to church.

Can I just say that when we do things by the book
they work out.
I mean the Bible is God breathed scripture.
It's how we know who He is.
Today for the first time in a long time during our leadership meeting
we all prayed. With the goal of God preparing hearts and working on hearts.
All three of us.

I'm reminded about Matthew 18:19 Again, I assure you: If two of you on earth agree about any matter that you pray for, it will be done for you by My Father in heaven.


We asked God to prepare hearts and to work on them
not just the students, but our own also
I know He prepared me to receive His word 
during worship a concept came to me
while singing praises to Him it hit me . . . 


I need to sing praises to God
He doesn't need me to sing praises to Him
the songs we sing remind us of who He is


He knows that He is God alone
from before time began
He knows that He is the everlasting God
He knows that He brings salvation


He allows us to sing songs about Him
that remind us of who He is 
that encourage us in hard times
and remind us of why the good times are good times

SPEED BLOGGING =)

Okay so after having read proverbs 24 today something hit me
God has been allowing me to take away from His word
and it's just been stuff that I'd consider to be small, but they aren't small things
like today in proverbs 24 he tells me not to envy the wicked,
but sometimes I find myself wishing I had some of the things
that the wicked have

God has also been teaching me through my relationships with people
things about Himself
I'm glad that He has opened my eyes to see that I haven't truly been on empty
I just haven't realized what He's been doing in my life
and what He's been teaching me til just now

this was a speed blog =)

Subway and MEGAMANBAG!!

Right now . .I'm only writing because I have a few moments to
I'm at subway right now
yeah the one at my school
in 5 minutes I will carry my megamanbag all the way across campus
to go to earth science . .
HOORAY!!!!
lol

school so far is good
if I recognized patterns the way I do now
back when I was in middle school . .
I'd be a math genius

But hey ever since God opened me up to music
I recognize patterns now
glory to God forever!

Tomorrow is my birthday . .

oh btw Sunday night I got pulled over because the head light went out. .
only to find out that my license was suspended. . . that was a terrible experience

I'm learning to rely more and more this year just like last year
at the beginning of last year I wanted to do everything myself
EVERYTHING!
D-Now happened . . I had to rely
The beginning of this year I'm learning to rely in another way
transportation. . . .
I have to rely. . .

why do I think at times that I'm self sufficient . . . when I know I'm not

IASIDNASPIUDNASIPUNDIAPSUNDPIAUSNDPIUASNDIPUAN

ps. License being suspended is something I was never informed of.
Never got a letter in the mail or anything.

Conformed

It's been a wild week. This week I lead worship for our youth group and church, started four classes at school, and got some hours in at work. I can honestly say that God's grace has been holding me up through all of this, because I've been really tired this past week. God has blessed me with great friends who even in my tired state bring me joy and make things exciting. This past week I did feel what seemed like discouragement from people who probably weren't trying to be discouraging, but they just seemed to come off that way, but sticking through it all and doing what God says do and He will handle is so worth it. I'll totally remember this week.
    It has been a kind of rough week with being in the word. Today's message really shot out at me, because my church is going through the new testament in 90 days and I have been trying to go through it with them, but at some point I decided that maybe I should do my own thing. That's not how God designed the church to opperate. We said we, as God's people, were going to do something together, so we, as God's people, ought to do this together. Though it's going to be rough following along with another plan for reading God's word, I believe He is going to grow me through the process. Lets face it. It's God's word, and it never returns void.
    If I could ask for prayer on anything, I'd ask that you pray for my hunger for God's word to be greater than my hunger for anything else. I've been having a rough time being hungry. Is it okay to admit that? I think people who don't admit these things are the ones who starve to death. I also lately have noticed my slipping into the world. I'm slipping into the pull of popularities gravity, and that's not where I want to be. I know God has empowered me to live a life holy and pleasing to Him. Pray for me on that.

Tiring Day

This has been one of those
I've been on the go all day
took a nice power nap
Spent some time in the word tonight . . .

Had a pretty frustrating moment tonight concerning doing something I know God has called me to do
I just kinda got discouraged, frustrated, and stressed out about it, but I can't just not do it knowwhatImean.
If we just give up every time adversity shows it's ugly head we'd never get anywhere, and that definitely isn't faith if I give up. I know God has the situation so regardless of adversity it's all good.

well I tire. . .
g'night

Dogs and Crums

I'm kinda just chillin right now about to head into a math class, but I've decided to get a blog up before I go. I was reading matthew chapter 15 today and something really stood out to me. There was a Canaanite  lady with a demon possessed child, and she asked Jesus to heal her child, yet He seemed to ignore her request at first. What did she do? Did she quit? No she didn't. She kept asking. He ever referred to her as a dog. I don't think Jesus was doing this to be offensive, but that He was looking for true persistent faith.

check it out

²⁶ He answered, “It isn’t right to take the children’s bread and throw it to their dogs.”

 ²⁷ “Yes, Lord,” she said, “yet even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters’ table!”

 ²⁸ Then Jesus replied to her, “Woman, your faith is great. Let it be done for you as you want.” And from that moment her daughter was cured.

Your faith is great. Let it be done for you as you want. 

Faith!

Well heading to class now =)

Pray for me

oh and um Pray for yourselves too 

More and More

I know it's been a few days lol
been a little busy
let me start off by saying I'm doing very well
God has blessed me.
Boy has He blessed me.

I was reading a book called extraordinary which has me thinking a lot about faith, and it also has helped me in the way that I pray lately. Faith is the substance of things hope for the evidence of things not seen(Hebrews 11:1).
That word evidence says that faith requires something physical. Evidence is what is used in court to convict someone or prove them innocent, and without it we really have no case;therefore, faith requires action. Faith requires something to be seen in those who claim to have faith. When we claim Christ yet don't live by His word then we say we trust Him but come up empty on the evidence. We fail to produce fruit consistent with the trees we say we are. However when we claim Christ and we follow His word, which requires knowing His word, we prove our faith.
   The word of God is not simply full of commands, but it is full of His promises. He shows us His faithfulness throughout His word, and not only does He say He is faithful, He proves that He is faithful. God has always proven Himself to be faithful and true, because He backs up what He says He is going to do; likewise, we as His children must prove ourselves to be faithful by providing evidence of our faith.
   We can choose to doubt or be faithful. Doubting like being faithful is an action. Unlike the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen, faith. Doubt is the deficiency of things hope for, and the lack of evidence of things not seen. Doubt isn't always bad, but when doubt comes between us and God's word it is dangerous. Just listen to how I described it as a deficiency. That already sounds dangerous. Doubt being the action of not trusting robs us of the abundance of life that God has for us in many situations of our lives. John 10:10 says the thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but I have come so that you(we) might have life and have it abundantly. That is Jesus speaking right there. Doubt when it comes to Christ robs us so we know it is from Satan.
   How do we combat doubt? We combat it simply with faith. Now as I said earlier faith in God requires knowing God's word and who He is. We have to know His voice in order to know when He is calling because if we don't know His voice we will end up falling for anything. Knowing Him is very vital to combatting doubt. I'm reminded of Jesus in the wilderness as Satan tempts Him with food after having not eaten for days, as He was on a fast. Satan tempts Christ with His own power to turn the rocks into stone, but Christ had God's word in His heart and He didn't fall and break His fast there, but instead He replied to Satan saying "IT IS WRITTEN:Man must not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.” Check out the first part of that statement. It is written. This shows that Christ has God's word in His heart. Now don't get me wrong I know and understand Jesus is the word become flesh, but He is also the one who dwells within us and empowers us to live as He does. 


With all of these things on my mind I just have to stop and pray that God would help me when I'm in the face of doubt. When I have to choose between being faithful, or being doubtful. What God has brought to my mind makes me want to know Him more and more, so that I may have evidence that I have faith and so that I would be able to glorify Him more and more. 


real faith will come through
when we make a move

Praying And Waiting

One of the hardest things to do is to let someone go

To watch a friend go through a really hard time and know that all you can do is

let them go through it

listen when you can

but ya can't be the hero

It's rough on me can't imagine how rough it is on them

Praying every day for them knowing that the only way 

that all this well ever get better for them

is by God's grace alone

and praying for yourself knowing that the only way

that you could ever let them go is by God's grace alone

but God's grace is bigger than the situation

much greater than the situation

truthfully starting to learn that as I go forward

tomorrow night I'll be leading the discussion for the youth group

Speaking on endurance 

I'm really stoked 

please keep me in prayer about these situations =)


p.s. two days ago my pastor challenged my church to read the whole new testament
with him in 90 days
I am doing this if you want to join me
it was 2 chapters a day so if you haven't been
since today is the 3rd day just go with 6 :D