Music Music Music

Well today I have been thinking a lot about the music that I have written
and recorded and how I could make changes to it
I especially thought of the song Defy that I've written
to change that to the type of song that I originally had picked for it
I actually can't wait to go over these things with the band
I have also been in a serious writing process lately
I'm working right now in my head on two songs
just finished up two different songs also

still super stoked for the opportunities that God has opened up
for GNS to play still praying about one and coming up with
a set list for the other :D

also the youth band that I lead will be playing at a park
so I'm really tied up in a lot of music haha
It's all to the glory of God
I'm so happy to be doing all of this
yes there is stress involved, but it's good stress
                                                               ^
                                                               1
                                                               1
                                                        does exist

well I gotta get to life group

btw
Hearts come broken. Sin breaks them.
It leaves a hole the size of eternity in them, and the only thing
that can fill that hole is something eternal.
God not only is eternal, but makes eternity happen.
He is the only one that can fill the brokeness of the heart
He is the only one who can wipe away the stains of sin

and He loves us enough to do so

Don't stay broken!

So awkward

I am
I don't talk like most people
I don't live like most people
and I'm not as depressed as most people

these days to me depression seems like a fad
like it's something people want to live in

God calls me out of that

I used to not be so awkward though
there was a time where I was just as depressed
and often felt that I should be more depressed than the people
around me

and hey I have my moments, but I refuse to live in them

anyways
today has been a pretty epic day

1 class in school
then went with la familia to see the hunger games
I almost cried when Rue died again :P
then played Ninja with light sabers
pretty awesome day
and I'm about to head out to band practice in a little bit

Now lets get down to the meat of the situation

Just recently two doors have been opened up for the band

Goodnight Saturday

to share christ through music

This is exciting because we have prayed about one of the doors

and God is making it happen

we are praying about the second door, which was just opened today

did I mention 

that this is the band

that I lead?

I'm stoked!!!!!

I can't wait to see what God has in store for all this

to see how He's going to get glory in it all 

that's my prayer with the situation

humbled hearts and a glorified God

I wish cheese sticks grew on trees

if they did I'd farm them.
Maybe I will put in a request from God to make that happen
when there's a new heaven and a new earth :P
or maybe . . .
MAYBE THAT WAS THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT!!!!

Today was an amazing day.
After school this morning I walked around the mall for a little bit,
which I may make into a Tuesday morning habit for this term.
I also told myself that I would not eat today until after 6:30
now at the time that I told myself this I had totally forgotten
that I was invited over to friends house for sushi tonight
then I got the text saying that sushi was at 6:30

. .
that's whats up XD
this was only my second time ever eating sushi before
I didn't like it the first time but considering the environment
that I had it in the first time, a wedding, I figured I'd give it
another shot.  . . .
Turns out . . I'm not a fan of sushi, but there were these amazing
cheese stick like things that I fell in love with
and some kind of noodles and chicken that tasted
like it also had steak sauce in it. THAT WAS SOME DELICIOUS STUFF!!!

Such an awesome time of fellowship tonight

we played Creationary
which is
<-------- This intensely epic game
it's like charades with lego's

HOW EPIC IS THAT :)

I also was introduced to this epic picture today ----------->





Now honestly
That one had me cracking up because today
I did look in the mirror and say
"Dang look at that good lookin man!"
no literally I said that
out loud . .
I crack me up =) and hopefully you too.

So as you all know I've been reading the book of Jeremiah

I finished up chapter 31 today 

Thinking about how God describes his relationship to Israel as a marriage

and then goes on to talk about how they went against 

the covenant that He made with them

Makes me think of all the times that I have gone against what God has for me

whenever we choose this world over God and go against Him

We being those who claim a relationship with Him

we are cheating on Him

committing adultery with this world, which just leaves us empty

and we are committing this act of adultery against faithful God, who more than fills us

Then He continues on to let them know that the punishment for their sin

will not be forever, though they cannot go unpunished

there will be a day where He will bring forth a new covenant

and no longer will they be bound to commandments on tablets, but instead

the commands will be on their hearts

now this also applies to us as Christians

for us who belong to Christ

God's word and His commands ought not just be something

in a book or something that we dread

in fact if it is we ought to pray that God would change that

We ought to love His commands

We ought to pray that He would change our hearts

to know that what He has is better for us than what this world says

God wants what is best for us

not what the world says is best for us

the world doesn't know what's best for us

in fact the world doesn't even know us

this world is not our creator

but it's creator is

The world 

just like us

is busted

God created it and us

He chooses to fix us, and destroy the world

so the world is going to try to hold us down in it's jealousy

let's not be held down but instead

lifted up by our Amazing God

^

Oh cool look I made a cool shape 

:)

good day

yes indeed it has been a good day
School was amazing today
got an 89 on my math test which we are getting to make corrections to :)
and a B+ on my essay for english comp

okay for those who don't know
I typed up my essay and put it on my flash drive
when I got to school to print it up
the computers wouldn't read the coding from mac to pc . . .
this wasn't cool at all because I had ten minutes
to get my essay to class

what did I do?

I opened up microsoft word on the school computer
and quickly type up a B+ paper . .

wow!
no I mean seriously . .
wow!!!!

lol btw my macbook doesn't recognize the word Microsoft as a word :P

I haven't really talked to anyone today though
Besides a few encounters with people at school that is
I was able to give away two CD's today at school
and was also asked if I'd mind playing at someones church

God is taking me on an adventure
and I can't wait to see what's next

on to the next

well lately I have been through two fasts the first was soda
and the second was video games after 6:30
after realizing how much time I get with God after 6:30 I'm definitely going to be doing a lot less
gaming after 6:30

that being said for the next few weeks many will realize that I will have disappeared from
a little place called facebook. So the only thing you'll see from me there is my blog! :)
I'm fasting from it and planning on going for ten days

gonna be a challenge  . . .
Hi my name is Vincent and I love a challenge :)

God is going to bring me through this

P.S.
There's no use in planning for the zombie apocalypse
it already happened
the moment man told God He wasn't the ruler and ate from the tree
sin entered the world and we became the living dead
God didn't just plan for zombification He has the cure
The blood of Jesus Christ that covers that which made us the living dead, sin, and
makes us fully alive in Him!

Don't be a zombie anymore

Heavy I's

right now
it's hard to stay awake even to write this blog, yet I have church in a little bit lol.
My mind is all over the place right now.
Last night I had a breakdown it was glorious.
First it was sadness then it was joy. Everything just hit me. Everything
that has happened over the past two months just hit me, and not just the
ex girlfriend thing;in fact, she is the least of my worries at this point.

Lastnight one of my friends was hanging out so that he could go to
church in the morning with me. In the midst of my sleep, and I know this to be true,
God woke me up! To find him having a seizure. I wasn't normally woken up at all
because I was in deep sleep and when I woke up I was wide awake. There was no in between
GLORY TO GOD!

God also kept me aware as to what to do in the situation that He had dropped us into.
My friend made it safely to the hospital and is there right now.
I'm keeping him in prayer.

On the way to the hospital things just began to hit me
God spoke to me about the importance of just simply being there
the way that He was when He allowed me to be there for someone

I'm not sure how things would have gone down had I not been there,
but God willed me to be there, and my friend is okay now.

well I gotta run
peace,

It's Quiet . . tooooo Quiet

This week has been awkward. . .
for the past three months I spent almost everyday of each week with one person
and well even though I've been having my good days
there are still those moments when I become very aware that they are not there anymore

tonight is one of those nights
it's 8:17 and we'd usually meet around ten o clock
but I know that's not going to be happening tonight

I'd love to just say hey this would be a great time to just sit and talk with God
but this is me being completely honest
I don't just want to sit and talk with God
I want to take this adventure outside of these walls

right now I wish I were somewhere else
with people doing something else than just sitting here typing
but I just can't think of what to do around this place
maybe if I sing . . .

so much anxiety tonight
please don't take me as saying I don't want God in all of this
it's just I don't think that He just wants me to sit around with my head in the bible
all day everyday

nothing will get done that way
I'm looking for Him in all this, but not just the knowledge of Him
I'm looking for His hand in all of this
asking Him to make me aware of His moves in all of this

this morning I found myself on the floor of the trash closet at work
asking God to show me what to do, and to teach me to be brave enough to do it
maybe that's what this point in time really is
my soul longing to brave the waves in a stormy night
or my soul longing to bring justice where justice isn't
my soul longing to be on adventure with Christ right now
in this moment

to do something . . .

RIDICULOUS!!!!!
SOMETHING THAT THE WORLD THINKS IS STUPID!!!!

yeah
something great :)


because it's quiet . . .

tooooooo quiet!

War What is it Good For? ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING!

be silent 

no WAY!

The old flame in me is making it's way back through

it's been a while since I felt so alive

so ready to take on this world for Christ

so ready for war

I mean that's what this is right?

I didn't get saved so that I can sit around and sing songs

and when I got saved it didn't mean a quick ticket to heaven

I became a part of a Kingdom that is at war with this world!

This requires me to do something more than just lead worship 

this requires me to do much more than just be at a church service

There's a battle to be won and I am a part of that battle

and though the battle has already been won

WE ARE STILL IN THAT BATTLE!

There's absolutely no room for safety

when true love, God, wars against this world

No room for safety at all

I live in Pensacola Florida . . .

and there have been a lot of people my age 24 or younger

being killed

The clubs are being filled

while the churches grow empty

and everyone claims a relationship with Christ

We, the Kingdom of God, are at war

The consequences are eternal

the war is already won however

we can not stop fighting

not now

there will be rest when we make it home

until then we must take up arms and fight

til our last breath we must fight

no room for safety here

Confidentially Dented

2 Corinthians 3:4-5 We have this kind of confidence toward God
through Christ. It is not that we are competent ourselves to consider anything as coming
from ourselves, but our competence is from God

See what IDid There :)

So I woke up this morning with a huge thought on my mind

a breakthrough thought

in fact I know that this was God simply speaking to me

about my confidence in Him

He reminded me of where I used to have confidence in Him and no longer do

as well as in new ways that I have come to have confidence in Him

He reminded me of my previous dating situation 

and how in the end I was able to confide in Him

however the question that He hit me with was

a breakthrough question. 

He simply asked me about my dating life. 

Why that of all things? I don't know maybe because that's what

had me so stressed out in the past two weeks

I'd been praying to hear from Him

and when I finally did He made a point

asking this question

"Why do you allow yourself into relationships with people who have such little confidence in Me?"

It's all I've been thinking about since I woke up this morning.

In that moment I felt a huge boost of confidence, which also opened my eyes

to my lack of confidence when it came to dating.

So I sat there and thought about it for a little bit.

And I gotta say . . .

I'm royalty, an heir to the Kingdom

I'm chosen, to make God's name known

I'm more than a conqueror

The same power that conquered the grave

lives within me

therefore

I could conquer the grave if I needed to for God's glory

I could tell a mountain to move and it would do so if I needed to for God's glory

I can learn to play the guitar and piano in a ridiculously short time for God's glory

I can learn how to run garage band in a ridiculously short time for God's glory

TRUE STORY BRO!

or sis

whichever you may be

There's not much room for a lack of confidence here

God has made Himself known in the things that I do

He's made His presence known and that He is here to stay

and provide

The reason. The only reason I could think to come up with. . .

Heroism

No mas

I'm not here to play the hero

I'm here to make the Hero known

If I elevate myself to hero status in my mind

then even if God does something amazing I'd miss it

and when I mess up all of my insecurities will drown me

But when I look to my Hero, Jesus Christ, who is simply Victorious over all

then I find true security

I find my confidence in Him

there may be some of you out there like me

My prayer is a deeper rooted confidence in Christ from here on out

a sort of barbarianism 

willing to take risks in confidence 

kind of like yesterday jumping down the stairs 

or dancing on the boardwalk

Thank God for adventure

professionally crastinating

see what i did there

so today was a great day :0)
an intensely great day.
It was another take on the world day.
It's also the first day that I can look back at the past week and honestly say
"I'm over it!"

Hung out with a couple bro's today went to the beach
red flag no swimming
so what do we do?

We make a scene
we went to the boardwalk and started dancing
we got a big crowd it was pretty epic
we also jumped down some stairs just to see if we could lol
we were very unsure and if we were wrong . . .
can you say PAIN!






I also broke my shoe jumping down the stairs =P

 <----SEEE













All in all today was a great day.
Hanging out at the beach and looking at the pictures I took got me thinking
The God that created all this beauty
Calls me on an adventure with Him to save the world
it's incredible!

God told the waves that they could only come this far today
Job 38

And Your love is great

well today is an okay day.
It's been a wild week here lately but things are starting to look up for me
today I got rid of some stuff that helped me dwell in the past
just kinda threw it away
that felt really good
I feel six tons lighter lol
I'm not exactly sure why I was made for such a time as this, but I was
and I know God will get glory from it all
so there's a peace in it all

This morning I sang a song at church that just met me right where I am

"Give me faith to trust what You say! That You're good and Your love is great.
I'm broken inside I give You my life."

man I'm so stoked to see what God has in store for me!

dang it

it's starting to get to me now
the thing that has somewhat been bothering me all week
but hasn't really gotten to me.

it just hit me
a strong anxiety just came over me
and it is an intense one
my heart feels like it's about to explode out of my body

moments like these. . . .

I need serious prayer!
Serious prayer!

OOOOOOH

I have three followers :)

I just saw that :P

anyway
It's been a crazy week. Dealing with friends who have lost loved ones, relationships, schooling, and all of the normal weekly things I deal with. I can honestly say I'm a little bit exhausted, but it doesn't feel like a bad exhausted. I feel like this week was a week well spent. I spent more time in the word than I have in a while lately, so yes the whole giving up video games after 6:30 pays off; I've been able to be there for people in a time of need while shining Christ into their lives, and I got a new song done :). So yeah it's been a good week so far.

Don't get me wrong I do have my worries. I just haven't let them affect me and all the people around me.
OH ALSO GOODNIGHT SATURDAY HAS BEEN ASKED TO PLAY AGAIN

if you didn't know Goodnight Saturday(GNS) is a band consisting of My Buddies and I
and we ROCK FOR JESUS!
it's true. . . I'm not kidding.

:)

Well um lately I've been reading Jeremiah, as most of you who know me or have been keeping up with my blog know, and it's been intense. I mean super intense. One thing did kind of make me laugh though . . . God told Jeremiah to go buy some underwear and wear it for a while, then bury it. Jeremiah did this, yet I can't help but wonder if he was like "Um God are you serious right now? You want me to do that?" You know because when God gives us something easy to do it's just so hard to believe that it's God speaking to us. Later God tells Jeremiah to go dig up the underwear, and I can't help but think to myself "What is God up to?" Well when Jeremiah dug it up he realized it was useless underwear. God did something epic here.

Check it!

Jeremiah 13:⁸ Then the word of the LORD came to me: ⁹ “This is what the LORD says: Just like this I will ruin the great pride of both Judah and Jerusalem. ¹⁰ These evil people, who refuse to listen to Me, who follow the stubbornness of their own hearts, and who have followed other gods to serve and worship—they will be like this underwear, of no use at all. ¹¹ Just as underwear clings to one’s waist, so I fastened the whole house of Israel and of Judah to Me”—this is the LORD’s declaration—“so that they might be My people for My fame, praise, and glory, but they would not obey.


Now take out the words house of Israel and Judah and lets put our names there.
When we give Lordship of our lives over to Christ He fastens us to Himself
He says "Follow me" "Cling to me" and we must do that!
If we don't we simply fall into ruin, because lets face it Jesus is going to lead us through valleys, up mountains, and back down mountains. Neither of which we can truly make it through without Him. When we fall from His side He is always there to pick us back up, but if in our disobedience and pride we don't reach out for His help then we fall into ruin. Sometimes slowly, and sometimes quickly, but always surely. WE FALL INTO RUIN. 


just like those old nasty underwear


this world will simply take us down dead end streets
and throw everything at me that it can
apart from Christ I'm nothing
I'm just very fragile man sitting in quicksand
. . . 
helpless


And now an A selection by the Choir :)

don't have a title

but today has been a much better day
spiritually and emotionally

some of you may not know this, but I have been fasting soda for the past few weeks.
Well today I took a step up and decided to fast something else.
Today I began fasting my xbox 360 after 6:30 o clock
because honestly my xbox 360 gets in the way of me getting in God's word more than soda does.
way more than soda does.
is my Xbox360 a bad thing? No not at all. Is my allowance of myself to play it until 2am without having spent significant time in prayer and in the word a bad thing. . . .um YES! Totally gotta stop that. I mean soda is also a needed fast. I'm sure my body could use the break from caffeine again.
I'm very excited about an opportunity that God has presented me with to get Goodnight Saturday back together for a gig :) I'm so excited!

I also have been learning much about myself in the past few days
things I'm glad that I'm finding out.

I'm going to be alright
I've got great friends and family
and God is for me

I'm going to be alright

inhale

and wait . . . .
that's what it feels like
I feel like i'm holding my breath waiting for something to happen
Knowing that either way it goes God is going to let me breathe
but still in that moment where I want to breathe NOW!
I don't want to wait
that's where I am . . .

I wish I could elaborate, but I just can't not right now.
Maybe some day in the future.
But not right now.

it sucks, but hey what can ya do.
If I breathe now my faith wont grow anymore nor will I experience
the awesome that is at the end of this suck that God has for me

(that's a new analogy for the light at the end of the tunnel)

I want to see what's going to happen, but if I move at my pace
I'll just destroy everything.

God strengthen my faith!
You know the plans You have for me that aren't to harm me but to give me a future
one that glorifies you and I know all this is going to work out for me because I love You
and I'm called to Your purpose, but man does it feel like . . .well
the valley of the shadow of death right now.

how I long for the moment when I can exhale

Bad good days

Well today was kind of a rough one.
I realized that I will definitely be dropping my earth science class,
and other things happened, but today was also a good day; in fact, today was also
an incredible day. I got a song that I've been trying to get down which I shall be posting :).

anyway
let me tell you what I've been reading.

Jeremiah!

I've made it to chapter ten and I realized something.

^1-5 Listen to the Message that God is sending your way, House of Israel. Listen most carefully:

   "Don't take the godless nations as your models.
   Don't be impressed by their glamour and glitz,
   no matter how much they're impressed.
The religion of these peoples
   is nothing but smoke.
An idol is nothing but a tree chopped down,
   then shaped by a woodsman's ax.
They trim it with tinsel and balls,
   use hammer and nails to keep it upright.
It's like a scarecrow in a cabbage patch—can't talk!
   Dead wood that has to be carried—can't walk!
Don't be impressed by such stuff.
   It's useless for either good or evil."

think about that . . 

the idols that we put in front of God, the one true God, are hopeless in themselves.

They rely on us. Isn't that the center of idolatry though. Us! I mean any statue

that is worshiped had to be built. The statue didn't command people to build it, people just built it.

Television, video games, facebook, money, and all the other man made idols we have are just that, man made. THEY CAN'T EVEN WALK OR TALK!!!! We can destroy them, so why give our lives away for them?

But God is eternal, all-powerful, righteous, and filling. He fills the hole in our hearts that can't be filled by anything temporary. We have an eternal brokenness that can only be fixed by an eternal God. He talks and when He does all of creation obeys His command! Creation worships Him day and night. The angels cry out HOLY HOLY HOLY! In the light of Him there's nothing else to be impressed by.

Wow. . GOD IS SO EPIC #understatement

 

I go to church, so God is okay with me?

hmmmmmm
very popular belief here on earth.
I used to think that this was an American thing, but as I've been reading
in Jeremiah I've come to realize that um . . The Israelites totally did this also,
and when they did God spoke directly to them and us through Jeremiah.

(CEV)Jeremiah 7: 4Don't fool yourselves! My temple is here in Jerusalem, but that doesn't mean I will protect you. ⁵I will keep you safe only if you change your ways. Be fair and honest with each other. ⁶Stop taking advantage of foreigners, orphans, and widows. Don't kill innocent people. And stop worshiping other gods.


Well that kinda just smacks that popular belief in the face right. I mean God calls that foolishness.
"My temple is here in Jerusalem, but that doesn't mean I will protect you." wow! I mean think about. They were in the city of God's temple and they were living with the belief that God would protect them because of that alone. In a sense it was like "Okay God. As long as your temple is here, we can do whatever we want, and You have to protect us.


But God simply says "Don't fool yourselves!" 
He tells them how to truly be kept safe, which is to change their ways. 
Be fair and honest with each other. Stop taking advantage of foreigners, orphans, and widows.
Don't kill innocent people. AND STOP WORSHIPING OTHER gODS.


breathe this in for a moment. . . .