inhale

and wait . . . .
that's what it feels like
I feel like i'm holding my breath waiting for something to happen
Knowing that either way it goes God is going to let me breathe
but still in that moment where I want to breathe NOW!
I don't want to wait
that's where I am . . .

I wish I could elaborate, but I just can't not right now.
Maybe some day in the future.
But not right now.

it sucks, but hey what can ya do.
If I breathe now my faith wont grow anymore nor will I experience
the awesome that is at the end of this suck that God has for me

(that's a new analogy for the light at the end of the tunnel)

I want to see what's going to happen, but if I move at my pace
I'll just destroy everything.

God strengthen my faith!
You know the plans You have for me that aren't to harm me but to give me a future
one that glorifies you and I know all this is going to work out for me because I love You
and I'm called to Your purpose, but man does it feel like . . .well
the valley of the shadow of death right now.

how I long for the moment when I can exhale