Heart, Soul, Mind, and Strength.... but not all of it.

     I've been lacking in areas of my life. My prayer life and personal time with God has taken a serious blow over the last few months and I really realized it when I sat down for lunch with someone who reminds me of the more glorious days. She reminded me of what I had with God before I got too busy "doing His will" to spend time with Him. Not that I have spent no time with Him, but I've been on autopilot for a while now.

My days lately

1. Wake up

2. glance over some scripture

3. Go to school

4. Come home

5. Record music/play video games/work on tuesdays/church on wednseday/ practice on thursday

6. Hang out with friends

and of course there's food somewhere in there

Things are missing here....

Very vital things are missing here

things that have to do with God

     It's crazy how the snowball effect works. You stop spending time with God and start "Spending time on God" and all the sudden you realize that you're in such a critical condition of the heart. I'm thankful for the realization that things are missing here. Had it not been for the spirit showing me this, then I would simply continue down that path, and even though I'm saved I wouldn't be living an abundant life. That is what I want! That is what I miss! I miss knowing that I am close to God, and the pure adventure that brings forth. 

    

At the end of the day

I haven't been giving this all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength.

I've been giving some, but not all and that's a problem!

I can't afford to do that anymore, so my prayer is that He change this in me.

That He would come and renew me, and bring me back to Him because I can't fix me

only He can.