After Gods Own Heart

many of us know that David was not a perfect person
in fact he did some things that maybe we'd look at him
and seriously throw some harsh
pharasitic <--- like that word it's like parasite and Pharisee
judgement his way

but God describes David as a man after his own heart

reading psalms this morning I'm in Psalm 30
and I came across something

Psalm 30:7 Lord, when You showed Your favor, You made me stand
like a strong mountain; when You hid Your face,
I was terrified
8 Lord, I called to You;
I sought favor from my Lord

I'm going to stop there for a moment
and ask that we reflect on what is going on here.

Reflection time over

When I read this I realize that David knows when God is near

and He also knows when God has hidden his face

When God is near David feels invincible

When God has hidden his face David is terrified

Woah!

But wait there's more

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anyways when David couldn't feel God near anymore

he didn't just sit there and sulk about it

it says in verse 8 that David called to God

and sought favor from God

I see a friendship here between God and David

a true relationship 

David began to feel that He and God were not so close anymore

and sought God out

When he felt that He and God weren't close anymore

he was terrified

and look David was a King

he's probably got good "Friends" around

and a whole bunch of warriors to guard him and whatnot

But he wanted God

without God

David, a King, was terrified

and he cried out to God

He sought out closeness with God

continuing on

Verse 9

What gain is there in my death, in my descending to the Pit?

Will the dust praise You? Will it proclaim Your truth?

10 Lord, listen and be gracious to me;

Lord, be my helper

11 You turned my lament into dancing

You removed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness

so that I can sing to You and not be silent

Lord my God, I will praise You forever

Lord, listen and be gracious to me;

Lord, be my helper!

I don't know what David was going through in this moment

but even though He didn't feel God's closeness 

He knew that He had a closeness with God

to be able to say that as a friend to God

and God didn't hold himself away from David

He in fact showed up

Turned davids mourning into dancing

His sorrow was turned into Joy

and David couldn't shut up about it lol

A man after Gods own heart

knows that the relationship between God and man

is just that

A relationship

it is a friendship

God is Lord of all, yet desires friendship with us

now He has boundaries and He won't be involved with us

when we are walking around in sin, but that doesn't mean

that He doesn't desire our friendship

just means He's not a walking matt ;)

Lately the relationship between God and I has been growing

Having conversations like this one that David had with God

I've expressed anger and hurt

I've been brought to joy by His presence and His blessings

the empire is being built

and is making progress 

there were so many set backs this year

and Honestly this is the first time I feel like

I'm really getting somewhere

I'm learning to love me

in a way that I just haven't been able to

learning to let go of all my excuses to not love me

learning to let go of any out to search for love in places that are bad

and learning to treasure my own heart because of Gods great love

and the love of my close friends

I'm becoming more able to love