Day 32: Plans not to harm

For the longest time I've known that God had been calling me
to pull away from certain people in my life who are right now a distraction
and for the longest time I ignored that call
for the longest time I justified my ignoring of the call

saying things like
"God wouldn't call me to abandon people."
"That can't be the voice of God maybe that's just me being selfish."

but honestly it's been God all this time
how do I know
because the pain that came with ignoring the voice
the lack of growth that came with ignoring the voice
and the abundance of harm that came with ignoring the voice

I tried to talk myself into thinking it would be alright
but it's not
it's not okay at all

it's like trying to move forward

with an anchor in the ground

it just doesn't work...

God says that He has plans not to harm us,

but instead plans for us to prosper and give us a future

. . . .

well I know what harm feels like now

Harm kinda feels like the plans I have for me . . .

let's see what this whole prosperity thing is about

the plans that God has for me

tonight I made a step in the right direction

not to the side 

not back

but forward

and it hurts like hell because sometimes

in the kingdom of God

moving forward means

letting go of something precious

And sometimes it's hard to believe that there really is better out there

but even when it's hard to believe . . .

gotta go for it anyway

and hey

somewhere out there in the future

there's a better me too

Romans 8:28

For we know God makes all things work together

for the good of those who love Him and are called to His purpose

. . My prayer . . 

is that I can love God more

with my life