It's something I do....
I don't like it. I give people way to much credit, and it's something I really have to change. Something that I've been trying to change. It's really hard to actually go and look for help. I want to pull myself out of this cause it really isn't fun for me. It actually really hurts me. Being the one who tries for people who don't.
Flag in the ground
No mas!
that being said I'm going to really need to tap into my support group
I know who they are I just have such a hard time admitting that I'm not doing so well these days
As much as I know what I need and as much as me wants to get what I need
A huge part of me struggles to hold on to control.
i feel like i've been moving backwards again . . .
I need a serious push to hold on to my land
I keep asking myself when I'm going to show up
this first month has been a roller coaster
no lie.
While i'm striving to move forward I've made moves forward
then i get my head wrapped up in the wrong things
and it's just not healthy
I wish every scar every wound everything that has been wrong with me all my life
could just be healed in a quick fix
but I don't think that's what God is calling me to. . . .
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