Evaluation

I stopped and did that today. Just took a moment to evaluate the past couple weeks. The things I've done and why I've done them. I've done some things I'm proud of others I'm not. I fell into a black hole the past week and really kind of kept myself there without telling anyone, but my recent break up seemed to hit me harder than I thought last week, and what ended yesterday in a conversation that would kind of wake me up from my slumber. It was a rough place I can assure you and to be honest I didn't even realize I was there until yesterday. I hate getting to the point of antisocialism. I don't try but sometimes I make it there. I have to be really careful not to let myself get there because if I don't then I begin to make up what seem like good excuses to not be social. Like "I have home work." that never really gets done until the day it needs turning in there are other excuses that I make that I don't realize I'm making until its way to late. All I know is. I gotta get out of this house and avoid black holes. My very being began to crave interaction and it was filled last night hanging out with r3droom. It's always good to have interaction.

Here is one big thing I know.
The break up was a serious let down, but I can go on loving and being loved. God has shown me true love and taught me how to do that. My let downs may really suck, but they won't stop me from letting people in.